play me a song on the piano man......

SORRY- Wedding planning for my cousins wedding+ a new job has left me completely INSANE and unable to BLOGG it up. However Things with my book are fantabulous.




That cold hard shell surrounding my heart.... it kind breaks into a million pieces when I connect with music, when I read a good book, when I get butterflies, when I sit in front of the heater when I'm cold, when I watch people fall in love. When my cousin is so happy she cant stand it, when my mom laughs so hard she cant breath, When I'm writing my book and I make a huge breakthrough.

Why do those walls always have to go back up??? Why did they ever go up in the 1st place??

ahhhh living the dream.

OKKKK So I go into bucks this morning. I ask a question about the Coffey cake, the lady behind the counter gives me some snappy reply, then.....looks up. "HI! OMG I haven't seen you in here ina while?" hahahahaha. anyways during the day I normally get an iced drink but Saturday mornings are still a lil nippy so I get my normal hott coffey (Plus our office is like antartica brrrr!) So I get my normal Mocha and go on my way. Well I get into the car take a big sip, and I swear I thought the guy making coffey was new and turns out he was. My normal chocolatey drink, tasted like rocket FUEL! up up and awaaaay!!!!

My momas Bday was Thursday, so today my aunt and brother and bunch of people are coming ovvver ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMA!!!!!!!!!
My mom is so amazing :)

don't stop believing

Hold on to that lovvvin Feellllin

ok..... so, for months now I've been anticipating the name drop and the date release for the 17th book in the Scarpetta series. "The Scarpetta Factor" will release on October 20th. Last year I read all 16 of the previous books. half way through on about book 8 or 9 I did take a little break and read some kind of love book, just to remind me that everything wasnt about people dying :) But most people dont read one after the other either. They were like CRACK! Once I finished one it was off to buy the next. I found out about the wonderful half priced books. If you enjoy forensic science, love and dun dun dunnnn Muurrrder mystery, then this series is for you.

The time travelers Wife

My next passion::: I'm only 50 pages in and addicted.

This book is everything I expected and more!!!!!

I have this theory that if the book is amazing... on some level I have to love the movie.

I'm becoming REALLY great at separating my pre-determined images of how everythign should look so I don't get disappointed.

how did you know?

OK so have you ever noticed how guys have this radar???

every things going great in her life??? It's time to show back up!

I swear it... the second I'm setting in- someone from my past has to make an entrance, get jealous or sabotage my love my life. I pretty much told Mr. M to shove it. I'm tired of putting my life on hold for him.... just because he doesn't know how to act doesn't mean I have to sit around waiting for him to GROW UP. Now Mr. B... you know 1st love yadda yadda, He's the one they should alllll be afraid of. He's the one who creeps up into my life and I don't tell any one about, he is literally the ghost of boyfriends past... We've kinda had some weird juju thing going on since we were 11. Nobody meets their soulmate when their 11 right???

Mr. H is something spectacular though. He sweet, funny and kinda calls me on everything which is sometimes annoying. He eats up my free time. I don't know. We'll go down this road and see if it ends up like before.... a stubborn battle of whose right.

I'm not dating these people all at one time these are just people who keep showing back up in my life. So I say again.... How did you know??? no word for months and allll of a sudden here you are? surrrrprise surrrprise.

I've been waiting for so long

Everyone thinks its so romantic... Romeo and Juliet, true love...how sad. If Juliet was stupid enough to fall for the enemy, drink the bottle of poison, and go to sleep in a mausoleum ... she deserved whatever she got.-Grey's

I always though Romeo & Juliet was romantic but this quote is also true.... who does that?? Wouldn't you have rather live to tell the tale of this undying love? wouldn't that have been more romantic?? I suppose I am not one to give advice but I know a lot about giving up.

My mother has been though 5 marriages my grandmother 3.... and several other family members. I don't exactly have this great perception of "Happily Ever After"

My Cousin whom is engaged, is constantly over come with fear. What if that's us? what if it doesn't work out. I just tell her she's the exception...she's the one who gets the guy and that means... THERE is hope for the REST of US!!!!

I always tell people I'm never getting married even though I would love to fall in love. people get hurt when you lay it all on the line and I suppose no guy has ever proven this theory wrong. I have hope that someone will come along and change my mind. So for now Happily SINGLE.

Now do you get why I'm the JAGUAR... I'm certainly not the Cougar.

What's the name of the GAME!?

It's been a sleepy Jaguar day... that's for SURE! I seriously slept till one , got up and went to lunch and now worrrrking. I slept wayyy too much. Granted I didn't fall asleep till 4. I was watching boondock saints and DL music on to my ipod...whick I just bought and already bent the clip :(- then it was about 1 and I was not going to bed.... so I put in twilight.... (Can you see where this is going?)

Here I am Just starting the day when most people are about to get off work. Things are seriously going to be MUCH different when school starts.

It's going to be tough, but I'm strong :) There a quote I saw I reallly liked.
"The bad thing about damanged people is they KNOW they can survive" I guess that whole fear of leaping thing just goes out the window.

This weekend is Sharonfest!!! that means 3 days of themed nights, lots of running into people I've known most of my life and pretending like I am not drinking. Which I'm going to be doing to make it through those awkward catching up moments! Ahhhhhh Sharonville.

Ohhh and Starting to like a guy that I thought I wasnt interested in- SURPRISE... only me I swear it. I am -It totaly came out of no where. One second I'm all "it doesnt matter what happens" now I'm all "sooo what are you doing today?"

Funny how things turn out huh???? what's the name of the game?
A Jaguar with a funny feelin in her stomache.

B B BENNNY and the JETS!!!!!

Bought 27 dresses last night... it went on sale for $13.00 I couldn't say no!

There's this part where her and her hetero friend hydroplane off the road and are stranded in boofoo, so they hit up the local bar.... long story short- they get wasted and end up dancing on the bar singing benny and the jets ( I'm a sap for Elton). It's just this moment where his I don't care what anyone thinks personality shines through. This makes me think where is my James Marsden? HUH? where is he. The great hair, goofy grin, nerdy demeanor..... ugggggggh where are those guys?? hiding under rocks!!!??? My cousin found love so I suppose there's hope for me :)

P.S It smells like Chanel in the office. All the old Ladies com in on Saturdays hehehe

Id rather be tannnnning!!!!!!!!!

MONDAY
Being in doors for 10 hour days is not helping my tan. BLAGH!!!!! to work

After work I'm going to the evil gaping hole of melanoma to get my tan on since I don't get out of here till all the healthy UV's are away.

P.S. my blog should in reality be called.... I Blog at work.
........................ moving on

TUESDAY:
I'm in the middle of redoing my room. I have a new closet organizer in my walk in closet. (YEAH I got it good, It's called living at home. I'm NEVER leaving) and I FINALLY picked a paint color. Stratosphere Blue with one dark blue accent wall. My TV stand/ shelving/storage thingy at Ikea finally went on sale!!!!! I found a cheap used reading chair. It's allll happening.




WEDENSDAY:
All while this is going on I cant stop thinking about The Tudors season 2 that I have on hold at the Library coming in. SAD, I know. Once this obsession is over it will again be September and my fanatical need of Grey's anatomy will be fulfilled!! (FYI) huge addict to to TV, Books @ shopping.

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THURSDAY:
If you want to know the truth- I kind of sorta don't use my head a ton..... When I like people that is. I make them jump through hoops because I don't trust them, then I get my heart broken because I really liked them I just didn't know how to let stupid stuff go. So here I am putting myself out there and guess what??? I have that feeling like the bottom is going to drop out... ALWAYS. Granted somewhat long distance relationships are verrry verrry hard! I thought liking someone was supposed to be carefree and happy and your supposed to be in LALA land.... cheese and rice this is freaking hard and I feel insane.

by the way I'm not crazzzy that were 3 days of blooggin thoughts allll crammed into one :)

RAWR= Jaguar LOVINS.

Voulez Vous -ah haaa!

Across the room your eyes are glowing in the dark
And here we go again, we know the start, we know the end!

WOW- what a night...

haha Mama Mia was THE BOMB!!!!!!!!!!
I had so much fun I could barely stay seated! and at the end everyone and I mean EVERYONE was dancing and clapping and singing. Talk about a great show. I was so impressed by the singing, it knocked my socks off!

My sister and I stuck in the Abba CD and jammed the entire way home.
While in Columbus I saw one of my great friends! and we went to our friends house and danced and sang and played games. I missed my fraaaands :( but I got a good dose to last me a while haha.
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You know what's taken a back seat in my life lately? My writing. Something I am thoroughly obsessed with has just -poof! been out of sight out of mind. For the past month I've been dried up. Being away with people I am creative with opened my eyes to my passion, which is books and writing great things and having them actually mean something... to someone. Even if it's one person who gets me or connects. One person can change the course of someone's life.... it's a proven fact. Mothers, prince charming, vampires or just a little magic. I am drawn to these foreshadowed metaphors that a person or object will come and magically make the world right for you. you can be so accomplished and sure of yourself .... yet? there something missing? My book will hopefully be published. and then you all can say HEY!!! I knew her she was a lovely Jaguar. Who had many thoughts and wanted to change the world :)

RAWR! the Jaguar is back to WORK! thanks ABBA!

MAMA MIA!

here we go again why why did I ever let you go!

Alright people:::
it's time, This Saturday yours truly will be going to see mama mia! the live Broadway show!

How exciting???
My sister and I are having a sister date and going to dinner and a show. A fantastic show at that!. Seriously if you don't like Abba music you have no soul!!!!! It's carefree and it just makes you wanna move your groove thing~
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While I'm up there visiting I'm going to catch up with old friends! hit the pool and have my self a darn good time. I miss some of my friends soooo MUCH it's not even funny.

It's weird, when I moved home I thought it wouldn't be such a big deal! I would be home with my family and friends. But I miss them so entirely much!

Friends you make later in life are completely different then the people who have known you since you where 12. They are friends you made and kept! they are people you met on common interest or by chance (someone dating someone you knew). When I left Columbus a part of me was so completely sad. So when I go to visit it's almost like work. (that's sad to say but here is why! : I spread myself too thin. I try to see everyone jammed pack into one weekend, and I usually miss one or two people.

I wish with all my heart I could just say forget it and go. Go and move back up there near my sister and my friends, but I have family obligations. It gets so complicated and I see it as wrong to leave. UGGGH I just wish sometimes the world would lean in my favor.... just this once??? my lack of love life, my insane family..... my nut job friends? something anything? Just tip on your axes for a bit and give me something good. I deserve it! I need it. This is a ton of me, me and more me.... I sound so selfish! I promise, I'm not- this is a modest person begging for something to change. I feel like all day every day I'm passive, doing everything for everyone else.... This weekend is soooo needed. I need to get away! I miss the simple life :(

Ugh exhausted Jaguar..... Needs to escape:

Good Finds:::

I've had a few REALLY great reads lately. Sometimes I get a few in a row that are just perfectly amazing.... and then sometimes it takes me forever to find a great book.

The book I just finished was "The Physic Book of Deliverance Dane".
Wow, it took me forever to get through because I was attempting to read it while being slammed at work! However the journey I took to get through it was amazzzing. It's about a grad student at Harvard named Connie, who over the summer has to go clean out her grandmothers house. When she arrives she finds this out of date house with no electricity and is shocked to find running water. The first night there she finds this mysterious key inside the old family bible and is thrust into finding out who the name attached to the key is and how it relates to her heritage. Connie finds an exciting young man to help her through her research, all the while being pestered by her old quirck of an advisor. Connie finds love, magic and defeats evil throughout this book. I was throughily impressed. Never wanting to put it down.

I am now readin Sunday's at Tifaany's While not as xciting it is a quick read and somethign easy to tag along to the pool or beach with! It's a cute love story : ) I'll update you all with the ending.

for now I'm just busy working and having fun.....ahhhhh the life of a Jaguar

I love ohio::: yay for the Holidays.

BUT not the HUMIDITY or ALLERGIES::::

(I had an asthma attack on the way to work, so of course I'm pumping the Inhaler and sat out in my car and regrouped before I went in, So now I'm all loopy and feel weird. I should have known this was coming because yesterday the air felt weird and my equilibrium was off, saying that there was probably fluid in my ears. I sound like a freak. )

Anyhoo!!!! today is Thursday.... yay one more day before I have my 1st Saturday off : )
I'm so excited for the 4th of July I actually have real plans this year, so I'm super siked to hang out with all my friends. I've kind of been laying low this year, not out and about as usual. I guess you could say I've been soul searching. (Not the fun kind, where you go to a foreign country to find the real you) The kind where I made a ton of huge mistakes in order to learn from them and be the grown person I'm supposed to be, yeah not fun at all.

Also I've learned a lot about the people I enjoy to be around. People who know how to conversate, yet can still be silly and not take the world too seriously. People who enjoy art and literature and science. People who can talk about religion and be open minded.
I suppose I found myself. I'm well rounded, well spoken and enjoy my life. My cousin and I are starting rock climbing next week. My sister and are starting our kid eco-friendly line. Life is actually pretty great right now. I think a lot of my stressors come from surounding opinions. Like my mother.

Moms can be so tough on their children. I'm not a child anymore yet she still has this itch to tell me how I should be runing my life. MY dad is so forward thinking, whatever makes you happy, as long as your working. My mom is why arent you taking care of this?? why arent you looking into this carreer? I suppose because I have a full time job? I have a life? When my mom was my age she already had my brother, so I suppose she had to think serious, seriously. For me I'm creating my own path and when I get there, I'll get there. In this awful economy I'm not too eager to jump into the cut throat job of finding a job. I think it would be better to continue my education and secure a job. I dunno perhaps, that's a passive aggresive way of thinking??? Everything is happening!! I'm ok with taking it slow and getting things done. I suppose parents are never supposed to think our choices are ideal. When my sister and brother in-law moved to washington, you'd think that they had sold their sould to the devil and moved to Europe the way my mother behaved. It just goes to show you they CARE!!!!!! just not always in the way you would like them to.

It's SATURDAY again

ok so we all know I hate Saturday mornings.... everyone loves them but noot me. I wake up at 7 am and roll through starbucks before getting to work a 1/2 hour before everyone else to open, the guy who works the AM shift at bucks, now puts stickers on my cup. Today mine was a small little purple smily face. (It kind of made me feel better... shhhh). That's right people, I am now a REGULAR. This is what my life has come to.

Anyhoo not the moral of the day:::

In light of the fallen king of our generation, my cousin, katie lady and myself have decided that today is going to be dedicated to MJ. (The leg swing I perfected at age 8 thank you....thank you!)So after work were going to have a few beers and listen to as many of his wonderful tunes as possible.

even the older stations are playing Jackson 5... It's a sad week.
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Saturdays in general are not bad! however when all your friends are staying up till 3 or 4 and you wanted to go bed at 11, you start to feel like an old fart. ( no offense to the old people, I LOVE YOU). Like last weekend the 311 concert, totally in bed by 1. Friday nights I go to Barnes & Noble. Someone please put me out of my misery.

I catch the occasional party, or hit up a bar. but lets face it, I'm a light weight who can't drink and to be honest I have more fun when I'm sober (or slightly so). I think I'm going to be a bit happier when I start my new hobbies. Thats the real deal.

I am so exhausted and can't wait to sit around and talk tonight. Because this running around and working thing is starting to turn on me. GRANTED next weekend we get the 4th off and the fallowing weekend is my vacation (AKA my 1st entire weekend off).

Tonight I'm going to attempt to talk my cousin into being my rock climbing partner, I'll let you know how things go.

For now LONG LIVE THE KING::: and Happy Saturday to youuuuu

Medical school and Purse making.... WHAT!?

My mom and I had lunch today and we were going over math tutoring. For the rest of the Summer I'm going to be going to math tutoring and then taking the state math test and testing out. This is so I can start successfully and worry free on my pre-med track : )

Yes people I am going to take the plunge. I love science, science is a fact and math is wack. So here I come.

Also My sister and I are going to independently sell eco-friendly kids caps and clutches. Well I'm going to be making them and we'll both be selling them. So hopefully if I can't work full time I'll be able to make some extra cash with that.


enough with all these life changes already.

I thought at 22 everything would slow down. This is the age most of my friends are graduating and starting the next chapter of their lives. Well here is a thought. Who said college was for 4 years? Who said playing it safe was the right thing to do?? whooo said it was time for marriage and babies!? NOT ME!!! (Sorry for all those married and or engaged, I love the idea of marriage, I think it's beautiful I'm just not there yet) So I'm being ADVENTUROUS (That's what my mom is calling this chapter of my lifeor saying I NEED in my life) I'm attempting to find a rock climbing partner and I'm in math tutoring two huge things I though that I would never do. So I'm siked, Single and sewing now.

So let's see:

Pre-Med
rock climbing
my own business

Adventurous enough mom????

Can I meet someone new???

Now I know everyone is hearing a lot of ME ME ME and more ME

BUT SERIOUSLY!???
Can't I just meet someone???
I know tons of guys.... but the problem is they have known me for years and it's hard to be yourself when all they know is you, when you were 15. Or heck even 19. 22 is a big difference. I feel different.... older. I'm getting different expectations. I'm wanting different things. Before it was going out drinking and probably hooking up, then wondering why you weren't in a serious relationship. Now I'm reading self help books like "Steve Harvey" Act like lady, think like a man. I'm smart, charming and I attract ass holes. Welcome to my issues : )

I cant seem to get involved with any one at the moment. everything feels forced. I know I want someone, I think I just haven't found him.

yoooou whoooooo Mr. Right. WHERE THE HECK ARE YOU!?!?!?

Gotta have a little faith!

So I got my 3rd flat tire of the year.
I have some bad juju with tires. I don't know who cursed me, but please stop.

Starbucks is currently saving my life...rigth at this very moment I'm on round 1 of the mocha.

I woke up this morning (Saturday) at 7 am to come into the office and work for the next 9 hours.
YAY and I get to come back tmrw and clean. Might as build me a room then I'd never have to leave I could just eat, sleep and BREATH this place.

After getting 2 hours of sleep, I get to go to a concert after work. 311 and ziggy Marley.
all I have to say is RED BULL, RED BULL, RED BULL.

Then I will have a few drinks, go home and SLEEP FOREVER.

Now you may get the impression that I'm complaining. But what this is really saying is even after all these bad things happened, I didn't curl up in a ball and refuse to get out of bed this morning, although a little more sleep would have been nice!.

I'm pretending that I'm not at work right now..... I'm in LAguna Beach with my sister. YEA that's right.... she's living it up in California right now. relaxing by the beach. She called me last night to inform me she bought me a T-shirt. (I'm a sucker for souveniers. I'm an old soul with a young heart.) And in a few weeks I'm taking a LONG weekend and were going to be parked by the pool and were gong to see mama mia on Broadway. (That part is not me fantasizing were really getting to do that! I freaking LOVE mama mia :) and I freaking love FINALLY getting a vacation. YAY.

well Happy weekends to everyone. <3 Have fun and be safe.

-Jaguar-

Everyone is going to think I'm INSANE in my MEMBRANE!!!

Ok before I begin.... I want everyone to know for a very long period of my adolescence, I wanted to be a doctor.

So now my disclaimer: THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME WATCHING over 30 HRS of GREY'S ANATOMY. ok maybe a little?

I want to go pre-med. So yea at the ripe age of 22 I want to throw away my social life and start back at college as a pre-med student. So I started this process over a year ago: weighing the pro's and con's. I'd like to share a few right this very second because I feel as if they are not real if I just don't blurt them out!!!!!

Pros:
I'd be studying the most amazing aspects of our existence!
I'd someday have one of the most valued professions
I would be saving LIVES! <>
I would fulfill not only my dreams but my mothers!
I could work with children and old people <>sooo much.
I am not squemish <>

Con's:
I would have no life for the next 10 years
I suck at math<>
people would die sometimes.


I really think I could do it. I'm going to talk with the admissions counselor tomorrow. I pretty much have to start math tutoring...yesterday.

No one thinks I'm serious. My sister is 32 and keeps telling me I'm artsy and care free. My cousin thinks I should be a teacher. My mother would be happy if I make anything over 30,000 a year. So far my aunt is the only one who keeps telling me to find my passion.

I am such a passionate person though: that's my issue.
my confession. I love living life and trying new things -so sue me!

I try something and if I love it, I through myself in. I try to be the best I can at whatever it is. I love a ton of things! it's so unfair to choose only one thing and say that's it! the rest of my life here I come. Even as I contemplate being a doctor I think one word: TRAPPED.

I've been enthralled into the world of Greys Anatomy

Sorry my 2 faithful followers :)
I've seriously been spending every non work hour watching the 1st 3 season of Grey's anatomy. I became addicted this past season and until they return I'm ADDICTED. I saw the most amazing episode the other day. It was when Georges character gets some great insight from a patient's husband. The guy says to George, " from the second I saw her I was ham". The scenario then plays out that the guy states your either the egg's or the ham. At first I was completely confused. What does this mean??? They both come with breakfest right?

The theory is that:
the chicken lays the egg, it sacrafices an egg for the meal. The Pig however is committed.

So, sometimes we enter relationships as the egg..... and then become the ham :)

I personally have had this happen the oposite way a time or two. You enter committed then somehow only end up sacrafices certain aspects just to keep the relationship a float. Life is hard and messy and it almost never goes the way you planned. Certainly I'm not complaining I wouldn't have it any other way, I just wish people knew what they wanted out of the relationship or life for that matter!! things would be a lot less messy and people wouldn't get hurt. I also believe if your going to be involving another persons emotions and attempting to fight fate and date someone you might not otherwise have though about that a good idea would be to weigh your options. and a good way to decide.....decide are you the chicken or the ham???

Is any one else scared of ordering things on-line?

I have this Ginormous fear of ordering things on line.

I want/ need a new pair of riding boots. (FYI I ride horses, during the summer at least) I'm going to be doing a 10 hr ride with my aunt I'm July and my old boots have kicked the bucket.
I found a pair that are dirt cheap off this website that I normally order from their catalog. How simple just put in my card info and the boots are here in 10 days. Free shipping!? count me in.
Then I start to think about it. What if someone steals my card information?
Them I'm getting bank statements for mail order brides or something.

I don't know if I'm being over dramatic or if this is serious business. I hear about this stuff all the time! Damn you google! On my Iaccount I have a news page.... bad idea.
So anyways: I'll be ordering the boots. LOL I need them and It's too great of a deal to pass up!

Other than that! one My best friends (Her name is Lady K) found a job today! She's been so stressed with this economy & is about to Graduate I'm so happppy for HER! Good Job Lady K. I knew you could do it.

The bad guys lie to get in your bed and the good guys lie to get in your heart. -One Tree Hill

I have a problem.... It's called "IthinkIcanChangeYou"

Have you ever fallen head over heels for a bad boy? You think to yourself. He's good looking, Funny, good lord! Charming. He holds your hand, he calls you baby and he doesn't give a shit what anyone thinks about him. He parties, he's carefree, He is THE man after your own heart.
Going out with him is almost like being on a high, you just can't get enough!
Then one day you have to get up early for work and you say damn I've slept 4 hours in the past two days. what am I doing? when did this happen?
You were running around town getting your kicks with Mr. Right now.
Mr. "I've had 5 beers, 3 shots and when I wasn't thinking clearly had some of your malt beverage darlin"
Does he ring a bell?

Let me fill you on the Bad boy:
A) he will forever be a 21 year old boy
B)when you are 40 he is STILL 21
C)He is overrated.... it was cool at the time. Not now.
D)I'm not saying he sucks move on. I'm saying there is a Mr. Right out there just for YOU!

So FYI pretty pretty princess.... this is not an episode of the OC he is not going to change and bad boys can't keep their shit together long enough to foster the long term.

When life gives you LEMONS:
order a Long Island, that's the only thing that's going to keep you warm when your smooth talking fonz doesn't come home to snuggle tonight.



Now I'm not always rooting for the good guy: Here's a few reason why!

They tend to be people pleaser's. and what this means is they are so busy worrying about what everyone thinks that you are often left in the dust.
- when is there time for little ole you?

They also have a really difficult time getting the initial passion going.
-And we love it when someone can light a fire.

They take forever to tell you they like you, even though you already to know. It took them so long to fumble and bumble through the process that you most likely played with their emotions by seeing the bad boy a time or two. Why? because he NEVER has a girlfriend and is always available, or not available making it even more enticing!

So if you want the Nice boy who is going to be sweet kind and be there for you always!
HOLD in there tiger!!! It'll happen eventually.

It just might take 4 years.



---Lovint he talk? fallow the BLOGG!--

My week so far.....

Ok, So I know everyone hates Mondays... However... I especially have this loathing foreboding ... rain cloud hoovering above me type action as soon as I awake. Is there something my parents forgot to tell me?

Lets take a look into my day.. shall we?

I take my Grandmother to the doctor... no biggie-I love my grams!
(My mom who should be doing this "decided" to stay another day in Columbus call me the evening before and graciously aloud me to take over her responsibilities for the fallowing day.. ohh mother how could I EVER repay you?)
She explains to me that if I take her in early, they will take her when she gets there and it's" in and out!" poof just like that.
I'm in naive, just woke up, jammin up to grams in PJ's mode and I'm like YES! bada boom boda bam in and out here we go!
My grandma has a hard time walking so we move at slow mo. I'm good... were chatting (catching up on the family drama).
and then something a little thing I like to call Chinese water torture happens.
we sit and wait!
and then we wait some more...
then we go back and get in our little holding cell and wait some more.
Mean while I'm supposed to be helping plan my cousins wedding.... which my mother would know had she not called me 15 hours prior to pull the trump card on her 22 years of service in the infantry of mother hood.

thanks for the guilt trip.

So after all is said and done we swing through Wendy's grab some lunch which I have to inhale because my in and out trip to the doc now has me at 1:50. I run home change and arrive @ work. at 2:04pm

oh, I forgot to mention work did I ?? sorry, I was too busy saving the world.

Tuesday was insignificant, I just worked my ass off then went for some Margarita therapy with my best friend. *

So Here I sit, Yes I am blogging at work... thank you! I deserve it.

Through the busiest week of my life and old flame pops up... which we are just friends now two years later and we decide to for dinner. (We will call him Mr. H)

Mr. h says I will call you after work on Monday or Tuesday night. It's Wednesday and guess what no call! SURPRISE SURPRISE! I shouldn't be upset right? were only friends? nope I'm mad because when I choose friends I seldom choose those who blow me off or don't call when they say they will.
I read a book by someone I consider to be the holy mecca of relationship advice AKA how to move on and that's a man by the name of Greg Behrendt. He wrote He's just not that into you and It's called a breakup because It's broken. A wise man that Greg! and here out of the entire book is what changed me for the better:
"Calling when you say you're going to call is the very first brick in the house you are building of love and trust. If he can't lay this one stupid brick down, you ain't never gonna have a house, baby. And it's cold outside."

there you have it folks.... I want the house!
I want the freaking trust tree.... I DO NOT want to sit awake waiting on you to call and guess what... i WONT. I'm not that kinda girl! I don't watch a see what happens. So hey there Mr. H, shape up or ship out!

Maybe next week we'll talk about how I turned into such a bad ass okay?
but for now that's all!
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Throughout my entire 22 years, I've learned a thing or two. ONE: I like to write, TWO: I like to read, THREE:FAMILY is forever, FOUR: Live and let go and FIVE: Karma has a sneaky way of coming back to getcha! I have trials and tribulations just like the next person, and through these moments and realizations of living in the ever changing world, I will write about it and take you along. Sometimes I wont always write from personal experience, however If I'm writing.... it affected me, moved me or opened my eyes to something real and relatable. Welcome to Living the life of a Jaguar :) see ya soon.